Milk, no sugar.

"It's been a long day," said me every afternoon for the past 5 years, and I'll probably say it for the rest of my life. I'm just so busy, not necessarily proactive, but constantly doing something or listing things that I have to do. At the end of it all, my brain is a McDonald's burger and my body a packet of fries. And so, I do what I do every time I feel a breakdown approaching.
I make myself a cuppa tea.
Not just any tea, it has to be Earl Grey or Vanilla Rooibos. And a rusk on the side (they have seeds... technically they're healthy, right?) And I sit. And I ponder. And I write and dream and think about him, or the dishes in the sink that need a wash, or the fact that today was actually beautiful but I spent the hours stressing over the hours as they passed.

This is why I'm here. To sip my tea and discover 3 things that were beautiful today, or 3 things I should have done, shouldn't have ignored. Basically, to analyse how much attention I paid to the leaves underfoot and the girl that smiled at me over the counter. It's all about adjusting my perspective and forcing myself to see the world, not just look.

Now, I'm going to make myself a cuppa tea with the little milk I have left, and try to reflect on what made today splendid, so that tomorrow I'll bask in it with the abandonment of a tea bag in hot water.

Welcome to the teapot factory.

Wednesday, 20 April 2016

Day 7

Parents, God and technology. Very different, yet all very appreciated.

1. My parents. I think this is something I need to continually remind myself to be thankful for. The amount they put up with, do for me... It really is unbelievable. I do so little for them in return besides exist. It's a weird concept, actually. They pay me to live, feed me, clothe me, educate me, and all I have to give back is my love and affection. Best job in the world, really. Besides the point though, I realised yesterday how patient they are every time I demand something. Looking around my room, at the things I own, it's all because of their sacrifices that I can enjoy the luxury of my life and a cappuccino now and then (or every day...) Selfless and unconditional, that's probably the best to describe their love.

2. The forgiveness of God. Okay... so I've come to the realisation that the life I was leading, the people I was spending time with and my priorities were all spiraling me further down into a pit of doom (depro, I know). I've been so unhappy recently, disconnected from who I am and what my purpose is. To live without a God really means you live without a purpose or a reason for existence. A life void of any meaning, to be blunt. And I couldn't do it anymore. Today I decided I need to get my life on track. I need to stop investing time into destructive activities and allow God to mold me into a beautiful spirit, allow Him to heal me, lead me, garden my heart and cleanse my soul. I already feel so much better after just making this decision, and am so relieved that my God is a God of love, who forgives and forgets. I am a new creature now, a child of the kingdom of God. And I shall eternally be grateful for his forgiveness and open arms.

3. On a lighter note, let's be grateful for fridges. Since me roommate left yesterday and took her fridge with, I am now sitting with a full carton of milk and no fridge to store it in. We seriously under-appreciate technology and how much easier our lives are because of it. Communication, food, travelling... imagine how difficult it all was not even 200 years ago! But, at least now I have an excuse to have a million cups of tea and finish the milk before it goes green.



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